What The Heck Moments…..

Whew, when the weather is wet and cold we hanker for the long, hot days of summer….now, after weeks of hot, humid sunshine, we are longing for rain…

At times the heat has been oppressive, stultifying…hampering my creativity…

So I have been trying to jolly myself along…trying to ignite that flame….

..beginning by having a sort out of my watercolour tubes…trying out colours…..


….with no plan in mind, just doodling….but they somehow remind me of the hedgerows that are beginning to wither, shrivel….

I also had a ‘what the heck’ moment…you know the sort, where you just throw everything at a work….


 

….and somehow, something half decent emerged…and I was reminded of this quote from Edgar Degas – ‘Only when he no longer knows what he is doing does the painter do good things’…

Now I am not saying it’s a masterpiece…but I rather like it, and to that end will mount it, call it ‘Summer Heat’ and take it to the Festival…..

Perhaps I should have a few more ‘What the heck’ moments…

Letting Go….

Three years study at Loughborough University culminated in Connecting Threads….an interactive installation piece based on the cotton mills and canals of the Midlands and Lancashire. I lived and breathed this piece for the best part of 2 years; researching, developing ideas, learning new skills…


It was later displayed at both Cromford Mills in Derbyshire and Charnwood Museum in Loughborough…


Connecting Threads

I loved this piece; I loved all the research, the history, the experimenting, the frustrations….and even though it has long since been dismantled and packed away, it still feels like mine…

On graduating, and without the back up and support of the university, the equipment, technology and skills of their technicians, I found it very difficult to carry on with this type of installation; funding was a big issue and it seemed to be the usual story of ‘needing a track record to get funding, but you need to create to get a track record’ – chicken and egg stuff….

So I returned to my first love of drawing, painting, mark making…I love making marks, experimenting with mediums, trying to imbue my work with a sense of energy along with my emotional response to a subject…. and I am starting to feel as if I am finding ‘my voice’. I am always surprised when someone else likes my voice too….. Slowly, very slowly, I am making a slight inroad into making my art pay for itself…and that means selling work…and therein lies a dilemma….

Some work I am happy to sell, but others, the ones I really love…. I find it such a wrench…

‘Bowed But Not Broken’ was one of the first pieces I sold through Blue Owl Art – I had an real emotional attachment to this one, having gone through some difficult times so it was hard to say goodbye to it…

‘Norfolk Memories’ was another work that I loved, along with ‘Cei Bach’…

….and again, it was hard to see them go…

Now, preparing for The Melbourne Festival, I am faced with the same dilemma…letting go of the work I don’t just like, but love….

How do you cope with letting go….?

 

 

 

 

It’s Not All About The Art…

…..but oh how I wish it was….

Being an artist, the right side of the my brain is obviously to the fore…. which means I struggle with the business side of things… no question I would be eaten alive if I ever appeared on Dragons Den…

However difficult creating art is, and some days are much easier than others, it pales into insignificance whenever I have to focus on business matters: marketing, self-promotion and budgets…. all of which give me a great deal of angst…

A first time exhibitor at the Melbourne Festival in September, preparations are progressing, albeit slowly at times… and it is very much a learning curve… I have no idea how much work I should take, how many pieces need framing and how many I can take just mounted, what work to have prints from…and again how many…. and in my head all I can see is a lot of outlay and no guarantee of at least recouping that money…. (doesn’t help in that I have just placed a – to me – large order from Jacksons Art)

At the moment even thinking of titles is difficult…

I always like to title my work with some link, however tenuous, to the inspiration for it…. but that’s proving very elusive at the moment….

However, I am sure it will all come together in the end and if everything isn’t perfect, at least I will have learnt a few lessons along the way…and next time it will all be much easier…(!!!)

For now I will continue producing and collating possible work…